I have decided to run 2 half marathons (southampton - 22 April and Winchester - 22 September) and the Great South Run (October) possibly another couple of challenges thrown in along the way!!
I have set myself these challenges for a charity that is very close to my heart - Antenatal Results and Choices (ARC). They provide brilliant and much needed support to women who have been through neonatal births, like myself. They have a forum, sadly full of women who all have something in coming - the loss of their much loved baby/ies due to anamolies. It is a place where we can talk to each other about our experiences and just generally a place to rant and support each other. The forum had been of indescribable support to me.
Not many of you will know but last year I was having a baby, it turned my world upside down but I soon realised that I have never wanted or loved anyone more in my whole entire life. As I excitedly and nervously went for my scan, an anamoly was picked up. I was refered to the fetal medicine specialist team for a further scan the next day, sadly the anamolies in my baby meant it would not survive and I heartbreakingly had to let my baby go. I am glad I got to see the little on screen wiggling about and waving at me, something I’ll treasure always.
So on Wednesday 20 December 2017, I went to hospital and was induced and gave birth to my angel baby at 5.25pm. I got to see and spend some time with my gorgeous little one, something which I will never forget. It was the hardest days of my life with even harder ones to come.
The last 6 weeks have been a whirl wind, I’ve been up and down. ARC provided me with a place to tell my story to women (who are the only people who really understand what I’ve been through), get advice from them and provide them with support as well. They have really helped me and I really want to be able to help them by raising some money, so I would appreciate anything that you can give.
I will live with the loss of my little one forever, it is something that will never leave me, nor do I want it too, I’ll just have to learn to live with it. Xxxxxx