I have decided to run 2 half marathons (southampton - 22 April and Winchester - 22 September) and the Great South Run (October) possibly another couple of challenges thrown in along the way!!
I have set myself these challenges for a charity that is very close to my heart - Antenatal Results and Choices (ARC). They provide brilliant and much needed support to women who have been through neonatal births, like myself. They have a forum, sadly full of women who all have something in common - the loss of their much loved baby/ies due to anamolies. It is a place where we can talk to each other about our experiences and just generally a place to rant and support each other. The forum had been of indescribable support to me.
Not many of you will know but last year I was having a baby, it turned my world upside down but I soon realised that I have never wanted or loved anyone more in my whole entire life. As I excitedly and nervously went for my scan, an anamoly was picked up. I was refered to the fetal medicine specialist team for a further scan the next day, sadly the anamolies in my baby meant it would not survive and I heartbreakingly had to let my baby go. I am glad I got to see the little on screen wiggling about and waving at me, something I’ll treasure always.
So on Wednesday 20 December 2017, I went to hospital and was induced and gave birth to my angel baby at 5.25pm. I got to see and spend some time with my gorgeous little one, something which I will never forget. It was the hardest day of my life with even harder ones to come.
The last 8 weeks have been a whirl wind, I’ve been up and down. ARC provided me with a place to tell my story to women (who really truly understand), get advice from them and provide them with support as well. They have really helped me and I really want to be able to help them by raising some money, so I would appreciate anything that you can give.
I will live with the loss of my little one forever, it is something that will never leave me, nor do I want it too 🐸💚